Laman Nadia

I had bad dreams recently.

One – I saw someone I knew walked using stick. Like, she has sprained ankle.

I don’t feel good about this dream. So I looked up the meaning/tafseer. And, it’s not a good meaning.

The next day, I encountered something which made me feel uneasy. And just a few days ago, a stranger contacted me asking about the past.

The dream and what happened to me perhaps was coincident. I ask Allah to not reveal my past to people surrounding which was a secret I kept for years. I ask Allah to protect me from any harm that may happen to me.

Two – Last night I dreamed of being slaughtered by mean people. I was the third person. The feeling was surreal. I remembered I asked for something like epidural/painkiller so that I don’t feel pain. :p

But joke aside, there are several tafseer about this dream but it’s not important to me because I do not believe of such thing except God.

While typing this, I had coffee to keep me awake. I don’t want to go to sleep because I might have bad dreams again. It would be good if I can have someone to talk to until morning and then get ready for work. Haha~

I take all of this as a test from God. No matter what happen in my life, I will never give up and seek protection only from The One.

Strangely, although I feel a little bit scared of things that I imagine could happen, my heart keep wanting me to have good intention to people and surrounding. To see good in every single thing which could/will happen. Give flower when people throw shit.

And can I tell you something? Something that I can’t talk to people because they might find it hard to understand. This heart of mine always ask me to live life differently. Like, if people like to go restaurant to have meals, I should just cook. Buying branded things are not satisfying anymore. I just need to live simply. Instead of grumbling about work, I should just do my best and feel gratitude that I still have a job. And many more instances.

Somehow I must admit that I am afraid of doing something different. The question ‘what-if’ delays my intention. I am looking for answers. May God guide me and lead me to the right path. Ameen~

P/s: if you are generous enough, please pray that nothing bad happen to me and that God protect me always. Thank you…

…and good night. 🙂