Laman Nadia

My mind is exhausted so I am planning to sleep early. But I couldn’t. Perhaps I feel tired working from early morning while no one in the office except me and my boss. Don’t get me wrong. I treasured every moment working with my boss. It’s just…

…when it concerns company and the human in it. Something that you know and you need to keep it to yourself. It’s something called Private and Confidential. It will become difficult when you take it personally. Not like you intend ti. Then you start put yourself in that person’s shoe and thinking what would you do if you were him/her. The circumstances,  the feeling, the dilemma, the choice, the decision, the family, the self.

As a secretary,  sometimes I need to act dumb cool as if I don’t know anything. If it’s a good and positive news, I am so happy and can’t wait to share to the world. But at the same time I am patiently waiting to hear the announcement from the management. But if it’s not-so-good news that might only happen to a number of people, deep down inside I share the pain. But still have to act cool okay… 😎

I remember when a hotel was controversial due to some politic issue. My then boss briefed me and show a sign to me – to zipped my mouth. While we were busy handling the situation, a day later the news came out and became viral. I secretly take a look at a few forum of online news and…

I was hurtful and offended with the comments that was posted. It was not the hotel’s fault but they were giving bad names and mocking the hotel’s employees. It happened few years ago and I can’t elaborate more to respect the privacy.

I took a deep, deep breath while reading all the comments. And then my former colleagues started to asked whether I heard the news, asking whether it was true and which prominent person got involved.

I just have to play my role. I said, “really?” “I dont know about this. The boss didn’t tell me anything. But I can sense something is happening because he was busy running around, in and out the MD’s office.”

There you go, I make white lies there. -_-! Gotta hide whatever feeling you have, Nadia. Don’t spill the bean. Zipped your mouth now. Divert their attention.

Because of the tension and since I can’t share with anyone including my family, I cried in the toilet. ㅋㅋㅋ 🙈

That was then. Today, I thought I am able to handle it well. But when looking at some people who got affected, I feel sad. I wonder how they cope with the news.

Well… this is reality. It’s a test for them so I can only offer my sympathy smile and du’a. I believe, all will be well again. When one door is closed, there will be many, many doors open for us. Trust and have faith.

Ahhhhh~ It feels good after pouring my heart out. Slowly I started to feel sleepy and my eyes are half-opened. It’s bedtime now. Good night, you!

. typed from my phone. i don’t bother to check spelling and grammar so my apologies if there are any error/typo/mistake. Zzzz 😪