Laman Nadia

I regretted for not doing my best in the past. But i want to change it now. Everybody deserve to be happy and do what they like. I, must admit, i hold myself from doing what i want for too long. I guess, it’s time to take a risk.

I’m not in a mood to work hard. Not in a mood to build a career as well. I just want to be a student. Study and get a scroll. Along the way, i want to wake up early morning, do some exercise, go to library, do my assignment and revision, go to class and get home with big smile.

I dont have to worry about pending job, get stress, wake up in the middle of the night remember work that need to be completed first thing tomorrow morning, wake up in the morning and said, “shit, i have to go to work” instead of “alhamdulillah am still alive”. I dont have to put a fake smile everyday and pretend that all is fine.

Why do i have to go through all this? Why i’m the only person who have to work like a dog while some people can relax and not worry about getting a job or money for nearly 2 years?

I am restless and i am not sure if i can continue living like this. When is a good time for me to take a risk? My good friend told me to take a baby step in changing path. I have to suffer for a period of time but if this is for my happiness, i wouldn’t mind.

I hope i have a courage and be strong. I hope i’m doing the right thing. Yeah, listening to inner voice is a right thing for me. Before it happens, i wish to appreciate every moment so that i won’t turning back and regret and sighing.

Good night.