Laman Nadia

When was the last time i was the happiest person in life?
What did i do to keep myself happy?

I tried to recall every memories but none of it that gives the feeling i had before.

Maybe my happiest moment was when i worked at the same place with Kak Siti. We were running late to work but managed to punch card on time, got enuff time bought fried rice for breakfast. We were happy, chirpy and stress-free…because we had each other.

Or maybe my happiest moment was during school time. I had clique, we had potluck during recess time, we ‘fly’ from school together, got praised and scolded by our teachers, being naughty and chicky. Ahh i don’t know. All i know is i am not happy with my life now.

Seeing my friends happy with what they are doing rite now makes me want it too. I want to take pictures with friends, hug them, tease them, laughing out loud, spend time with them and end the day by walking home with smile on my face. But what i face now – totally unhealthy and unhappy environment.

I have no clear purpose of what am doing now. Work, just because i need money. Being nice to people, just because i was told to do so. I think, it is time to free myself from all this nonsense. Ya Allah, please guide me and lead me the right way. You know me better then i know myself. I know i need help and therefore i seek help from you. Let me be happy again like i used to.

Amin~