MasyaAllah… yesterday i finally found a dream to fulfill. All these while my life was kinda boring and dull and I always searching a target or an aim to achieve.
I always wanted to further study in oversea where I could challenge myself to be independent. I can’t live without getting help from my family, relatives and friends. Therefore, it would be a good experience to go to a new place, make new friends, and create new memories for every single day. However, because of financial constraints, I have to let it go… 😦
My desire to study is always seething in my heart and I always look forward any opportunity to pursue it. Again, it is all about money. Now that I am working in Subang, I need a car, pay for my fuel and toll, service, annual insurance etc etc. Sigh~ I won’t be able to make it.
Leaving my luck in Allah’s hand, after my istikharah prayers, I decided to make a first step in July 2011. I chose WOU because it’s near from my house and have the course programme that I want.
I have just ended my first semester and a bit regret I procratinate my time by not study diligently. Often I make excuses for not to make time to study. Yes, i regret it now and I will punish myself and put double effort for my next semester.
Until I browsed a university in South Korea… they are offering Summer School in July this year. Yes, this is my opportunity to go. It is only for 3 weeks and I can sense that I have to do a lot of preparation from now.
I started with istikharah last night. Try to seek approval from Allah to decide whether it is okay for me to go. Alone. By myself. As a daei. As a foreigner who wear headscarf. Total stranger. If this is not meant to be, then I redha and accept it as it is. However, can’t just let it for Allah to decide without me trying and make preparation first. I have to work on it, pray then only leave it to Allah’s hand.
So, starting from today, I will record all my plans and preparation so that can be reviewed again in future.
Where should I start first?
Should I make a comprehensive list??
I am so excited. May Allah makes it easier for me…
Ameen.
Love always,
Nadia
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