Laman Nadia

Today is 29th of May. 2 days ago to enter June. Oh my God! A lot of things happen and yet I still feel I am not up to where I want to be. Hmm let’s open up the story one by one…

I heard another new rumour about myself. I feel sad but come to think in positive way, this is test from Allah and maybe people feel intimidate considering I was their competitor?? Hmm am not sure about that but I like to think that way. I find it is difficult to be a nice person. I really want to do good to Allah and I really want people around me to be happy but somehow it went wrong somewhere on the way. How can I show love and care to people? It should come from pure and kind heart. Is that meaning that is not a good-hearted person?? I really admire my late aunty because she had good heart and always smiling despite all the sorrow and sadness she had. I, truly, admire her.

I feel guilty because I didn’t take a good care of my car. I didn’t take a good care of myself. I always has headache, stomachache and my body is a bit weak and lack of vitamins and nutrition. I want to be healthy, pretty and have grace and pleasant personality. Will I achieve it?

Last week, on 22nd May I attend Diana’s wedding. I felt sorry for her because I could not keep my promise to have a Bridal Shower for her. The reason being was that was a horrible time for me and I was very offended and disappointing with people who were seems not happy with the wedding and everyone just being selfish. I hate it! Really not encouraging. I noticed everyone was hypocrite and pretending to care about people but actually they are not. I don’t want to be one of them.

And on the same day, I received a bad news. My uncle passed away due to heart failure. I can’t do much for my aunty. Well she should prepare for this as her husband not in a good condition since they were married.

On another note, I have decided to continue studies. I signed WOU and the fee scares me. And I learn Korean as well. I promise I won’t be lazy anymore but I am just too tired and sometimes if am not in a good mood I easily feel down and do nothing. This habit is not good and I must get rid of it quickly. I really want to read books, planting, baking, cooking etc. but am just too lazy. Oh where can I suck up all the energy??

I really hope after typing this entry I would change for good. And I hope I can find my Mr. Right because I envy my friends who have and will getting married.

Dear Nadia,

Please don’t waste any time and starts working hard. You have all the opportunities in front of you. Work hard and grab it and endures the pain as this will bring you to another stage of your life. In the mean time, when you busy with all your plans, don’t forget to look at people around you. There might be someone who is looking and waiting for you to look at him too. Have faith in yourself and always pray to Allah. Allah will grant your wish if you work hard.

I promise to always update my dear diary so that my future generation will have some idea how my life was and hopefully they will learn one or two from reading this.

Till then,

xoxo